Friday, October 31, 2008
{COMEBACK POST >;D - PART ONE}
"i love you and that's all i really know"
ellos ppl!!:DDD i know y'all miss the awesome me... im sorry it took soooo long for me to post again. there was just so many things going on that i, well, I WAS LAZY TOO(:
YES I CUT MY HAIR. QUIT HARPING ABOUT IT, YO!!! cut it like 3-4 weeks ago le, manzzz. geez.
anyways, this week was kinda slack... and i read finish the vampire knight manga and watched fruits basket anime, reading the mange until volume 4 because chev lent the others to yinyin. onemanga.com removed the rest of the series&mangafox.com keep having screw-ups in their translation... SIANZXZXZX.
FRUITS BASKET: anw i was just thinking, i wished i was as lucky as tohru honda to live with such nice ppl (although they are guys...) because whenever she goes back, there'll always be ppl she can talk to at the house. i kinda envy that, because this week, my parents have been working late, and my brother hasnt ended school. so im been feeling really lonely since training hasnt yet started... i wish i could live like tohru, in a place where there will always be ppl to care for her whenever she comes back. and the 12 zodiac curse tingie was really cute!!! also learnt alot of stuff from the book, because each sohma had a sad story behind their curse.
i wish i could have a friend like tohru as well, someone who always say the things i needed to hear to cheer myself up.
oh wells... [QUITS EMO-ING] CHEV HURRY UP LEND ME THE REST OF THE 19 VOLUMES. i tink im going soft ._." i cried while watching the last part of the anime... ZZZ. but the anime's kinda shitty... doesnt seem complete lorh... didn't mention alot of stuff too (cuz i read the spoilers teehee). AND WTH!? THEY GAVE AN ENTIRE EPISODE TO THIS GIRL WHO WAS IN LOVE WITH YUKI(one of the main characters whose said to be freaking haaawtt&polite). &that entire ep was talking about her love for yuki&whatnot... omg lah i was DYING A LITTLE INSIDE while watching it GRRR.
chev told me if i read finish all the chapters in the manga, i would feel like throwing the book away cuz its a crappy ending. then yinyin has been holding on to those books so she can learn how to draw the chars&create an ending of her own. huh. x.x
VAMPIRE KNIGHT: PISSED LOL. everytime ppl lend me a manga's first few chapters i'd read all the draggy parts. eg: vampire knight i read until vol. 7 before chev introduced me to the website one. THEN suddenly got so much going on i was like "HUH!!??" like so many shitty confusing things came about... *cough cough* do read the manga(: its quite nice...
as quoted from chev: "Hahas.. vampire knight is really full of shit but damn interesting.. dunno why >< hahas ><" - on my facebook wall.
I REALLY LIKE VAMPIRES:DDD and thats even before i read vk. always wanted to be one. i have no idea why... but bloodsucking seriously appeals to me >8) *evil grin* &well it doesnt matter if i live through thousands&thousands of years&see all the pain of humanity, as long as i have a partner!!! &chev agreed that if we ever became vampires, we'll be with each other forever:D
......... [QUITS FANTASISING]
okay i know i AM pretty weird -.-" getting all effed-up sentimental for no reason. being alone always screws me uppp... YEP IM HOME ALONE NOW.
♥♥♥LOVE VAMPIRES!!!<333
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i confessed to chev the other day at the passport place@lavender (wanted to change passport cuz the sg+malaysian customs ppl asked me to ._." picture waaaay toooooo unrecognisable (young), they said). i said sometimes i volunteer to act in plays&stuff, its cuz i wanted to live another life, even if its for just a moment. a much more exciting life than the one im living right now. same goes with watching movies&anime&reading books+manga. it distracts me from my current state of unsatisfaction.
people always said you should be satisfied with what you have now, and think about the things others lack that u have. well, i cant... idk why!!! guess i was born with this displeasure... or u could blame all the books i read!!!(: when i was young, i used to wish so hard for an adventure. i guess thats why i liked reading so much... its like a chain reaction - the more i read, the more i dislike my life's stagnancy, and the more i try to escape it, the more i read.
&that's why i always hate being alone... when i tink all this shitty thoughts.
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hmm supposed to go on a halloween party at sonia's house... SADLY, MY MOM SCARED I'LL BE FRIGHTENED TO A HEART ATTACK OR SOME CRAP. haiz... i finally found out the reason (really really found out)why my mom&dad restricts me so much when it comes to outings with awesome friends. they're scared i'll be taken away from them.
yesterday, pops suddenly told me about a girl who was missing for 9 or sth days. &he hugged me&said, thats why im scared for you. &i felt really bad for the times i hated him, the times i cried in anger when he screamed NO in my face. yea i did waste a boxful of tissues once.
OKAY YOU MIGHT THINK THAT'S SISSY BUT WTH!!! that time was different!!! its cuz i wanted to go out with 1SE... the most awesomest class i've ever been in(: i promise my mom i wouldn't go out for the month if she allowed me. then we made a bargain that if i completed my hw this week (LIKE ALL!!! which is abit impossible, what with me in total procrastination mode hehehehehe), i could go with them again. &since i got a 1SE class party coming up, I'LL TRY MY BEST:D BECAUSE I LOVE 1SE♥♥♥
footnote: planning to rewatch d.gray-man all over again, ever since i stopped cuz the episodes were coming out too slowly. OKAY RANDOM TRAIN OF THOUGHT x)))
*BY NOW Y'ALL SHOULD BE WONDERING WHY THE HELL IM POURING MY FEELINGS OUT. I DONT ACTUALLY EFFING KNOW. I GUESS IM JUST USED TO KEEPING MY FEELINGS TO MYSELF... WHICH JUST MEANS IM LOSING IT. like i cant keep mum any longer luhs... i guess a year in scgs, such an awesome&friendly school which allowed me to have such wonderful friends really did me great(: its kinda unhealthy, so i hear, to keep awful things to yourself. but i guess, some things are just better kept secret. because sometiems im scared to tell ppl stuff, because i dont want them to judge me because of my philosophy. oh man oh man... ALONENESS IS REALLY SCREWING ME UP. I GOTTA SHUT UP ABOUT THIS SHIT ._." &too many "because"s. damn habit UGH.*
+before i end this grandma story, COMEBACK POST >;D - PART TWO is gonna be ALL pictures... because all my pictures are in my laptop which is currently at rjc cuz my kor brought it to school ._." yes, damnit. the pix will be like mementos of 1SE&some fruits basket+vampire knight photos&mie+korkor camwhoring because there was simply nth else to do in the damn house. okay REALLY PROBABLY SHOULDNT HAVE CAMWHORED CUZ ITS SUCH A CRAPPY THING BUT BUT BUT!!! mainemaine has been asking me to upload a proper picture with my new (errr, actually not that new) haircut. SO YEAH. LEGITIMATE EXCUSExPPP+
okays... SERIOUSLY. BYEBYE BABEEES♥
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YEAH IM SORRY ABOUT THE ABSENCE... &thanks to all who made an effort to pester me to update it... sorry for the inconvenience(:
I know it was getting rough
All the times we spend
When we try to make
This love something better than
Just making love again
Its not like you to turn away
All the bullshit i cant take
Just when i think i can walk away.Addicted Saving Abel
i love you endlessly.
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